When it rains, it pours.

And after it pours...well, it continues to pour.

I haven't been in my best mood these days. Alot of things just keep bugging me, makes me lose my mood to work, sleep and even eat.

Perhaps, this is just me. Perhaps I haven't really been myself for the past 9 months. Its just that I'm reverting to my old self recently.

Alot of stress. Really alot. Coming from work and family.

Family doesn't know. They always thought I lose something when I'm in bad mood. I always was when I was kid. They still take me for one I think. I wouldn't want them to probe, just leave me alone. But they can't. They don't ask why. They just scold. Then they just quarrel.

I don't really wanna be the leader of my production team anymore. Its too tiring to keep the project in pace. I rather be the one staying at home waiting for instruction. I wanna be nice to all members. But I can't always be. Even Lee Kwan Yew have times when people curse him. I am afraid I might be giving my members too much stress and yet achieving nothing.

My health, has been at its worst these days. Got the longest headache I ever had, gonna hit the one month mark soon. I am taking 2 tablets everynight before sleep, and I am running out of them soon. Concentration level and span is pathetic. My best concentration is comes only when playing Guitar Hero. Else my mind is just floating around.

Sorry for my bitching. Time to go back to work.